Linger a little longer,
Stay just within my reach,
Hold fast to my shoulders,
Never release me,
I am yours.
Touch my heart again,
Make me live once more,
I long to see the sky
As I did through your eyes,
I am yours.
Just one more day in the sun,
One more silent night,
This is all I ask of you,
Is it too much to ask?
I am yours.
Lost to the shadows,
The sun burns me again,
I wander the corridors inside,
I search for you.
I am yours.
I wake in light renewed,
Warmth I never felt
Holds me tighter than ever,
Is it you I feel?
I am yours.
Time flows everlasting,
I blink and you are there,
Blink again and gone,
Once more
Destroy Me to Become Myself by jbyrd990, literature
Literature
Destroy Me to Become Myself
Dark clouds linger
Smoke covered fields
Drenched in the darkness
I pace like a tiger
Trapped in a cage
It is my own making
The smoke chokes me
The dark suffocates me
I sink deeper inside
The light I held
The hope that is me
It tries to pull free
To tear away completely
I hold tighter
It is all I have left
I've surrounded myself
Protected myself
I needed to heal
She was all I had
All I was
But she is gone
Yet not gone
I feel her
All this insanity
I feel defeated
She was taken from me
Too soon
I was whole
Then I wasn't
Who wouldn't go mad
But it is time
No more hiding
Time in the dark
But darkness no more
I tea
Real love is not the sense of flying,
When you first meet,
But the sense of sinking and the terror within.
Suddenly you find yourself
Tossing everything out the window
Just to have a few moments with that one person.
You're nervous that they won't call,
You ask yourself if you should,
And then the phone rings and they are there.
You worry when they aren't around,
Because you suddenly realize
Just how much this world would change without them.
They can stab and kick you,
They can destroy you,
And yet, in your eyes, they would still be perfect.
You spend every day waiting for them,
Because you know
The moment they come around y
In my time of need
All my strength gives way
Thoughts of loss swirl in my mind
Thoughts of death
And I find myself with me,
trembling miserably in a torrential downpour
Of all my pitfalls.
I dig my own grave
Deeper and deeper I go
Until I can no longer see the light.
I don't want to see it.
It burns me.
It makes me someone I'm not.
Someone
Who doesn't have the strength
To tell you no.
Drained
To my core
With the cold whispers of tears
Teasing the edge of my ear,
I feel my heart go cold,
Hard,
Unfeeling.
Still the rain beats down,
No matter that I can no longer
See the sky.
I can't escape it.
All that remains
Is an
Mother
You carried me for 9 months,
You struggled through labor.
You had this brunette child
Whom you raised as best you saw fit.
Mother
You taught me how
To read and write.
You held me when I cried.
You sang me to sleep at night.
Mother
You watched me struggle through school.
I never let you know,
The jokes and jabs the other kids
Threw everyday that made me cry.
Mother
You taught me it was better
To turn the other cheek.
You always knew that I was strong,
While others thought me weak.
Mother
You wanted me walk across
The stage in cap and gown.
You almost cried at how much
Your little brunette girl had grown.
Mother
Ideas spark not from the mind
But from the heart,
And in that fact lies the issue.
An artist uses their art to show
Their views and ways
While a singer will do so with lyrics.
Why, then, is a writer pushed
When at their limits,
Simply to finish the story?
Do others believe that
It is just a story and only that?
A story is a view into the writer's world.
With a glance and a few well directed words,
A writer creates a world for others
To see and feel and smell.
Such beauty is not easily come by,
For if it was,
How else would this world escape into others?
We write with our hearts
And so if our heart is troubled,
We cannot co
Linger a little longer,
Stay just within my reach,
Hold fast to my shoulders,
Never release me,
I am yours.
Touch my heart again,
Make me live once more,
I long to see the sky
As I did through your eyes,
I am yours.
Just one more day in the sun,
One more silent night,
This is all I ask of you,
Is it too much to ask?
I am yours.
Lost to the shadows,
The sun burns me again,
I wander the corridors inside,
I search for you.
I am yours.
I wake in light renewed,
Warmth I never felt
Holds me tighter than ever,
Is it you I feel?
I am yours.
Time flows everlasting,
I blink and you are there,
Blink again and gone,
Once more
Destroy Me to Become Myself by jbyrd990, literature
Literature
Destroy Me to Become Myself
Dark clouds linger
Smoke covered fields
Drenched in the darkness
I pace like a tiger
Trapped in a cage
It is my own making
The smoke chokes me
The dark suffocates me
I sink deeper inside
The light I held
The hope that is me
It tries to pull free
To tear away completely
I hold tighter
It is all I have left
I've surrounded myself
Protected myself
I needed to heal
She was all I had
All I was
But she is gone
Yet not gone
I feel her
All this insanity
I feel defeated
She was taken from me
Too soon
I was whole
Then I wasn't
Who wouldn't go mad
But it is time
No more hiding
Time in the dark
But darkness no more
I tea
Real love is not the sense of flying,
When you first meet,
But the sense of sinking and the terror within.
Suddenly you find yourself
Tossing everything out the window
Just to have a few moments with that one person.
You're nervous that they won't call,
You ask yourself if you should,
And then the phone rings and they are there.
You worry when they aren't around,
Because you suddenly realize
Just how much this world would change without them.
They can stab and kick you,
They can destroy you,
And yet, in your eyes, they would still be perfect.
You spend every day waiting for them,
Because you know
The moment they come around y
Broken stems of heartfelt dreams,
More than love can be and seem
Stepped in dirt and stone and grime
Fallen from the trees of life
Now myself, I walk from me
Another longing freedom from reality
I take my words in stride
Stomaching the pain they hide
In truth, we're all alone in this world
Though belief brings us from the truth
Let it be known that I, alone
Will conquer this lie-filled world
Though You Said You Loved Me by jbyrd990, literature
Literature
Though You Said You Loved Me
Though you said you loved me,
You took a chance.
You threatened the bond with another girl.
This love, once strong, once beautiful,
Weakened from it battle
And suddenly we were broken.
Though you said you loved me,
You turned the tide.
You risked it all, all for your pride.
Again you broke me, again we fell
and pulled our love to the pit of hell.
Though you said you loved me,
I knew it wasn't true.
Our battles lasted too long,
Our tests told the truth.
You were not meant for me and I'm not for you.
In the end, we both knew
Though you said you loved me,
Love wasn't the word.
So... it has been over a year since I left my last journal. I am still around, sneaking in and tossing nice things I find into my favorites and hoarding those images and such...
My preciouses...
Life marches on as it always has with time moving in its constant way. I still find it funny that, when you are a kid, everything feels so much slower than when you are an adult. I swear I only blinked once after my birthday this year and suddenly July was gone.
Got some plans in the works but, in general, nothing more to say here so I'll simply close out with these words...
Don't put off love or happiness. Make each moment magical. Live each day
Another year older.
Change is coming. I can feel it.
From these ashes, I will rise.
Life no longer lived under the shadow of the Raven's wing has brought clarity to the madness that is my mind.
Peace and love shall reign and I will stand amidst it all and live once again, with him by my side for the rest of time.
So, for those of you who are paying attention, until about a week and a half ago I was living with my fiancé in England for three months straight. We got to see many of the sights in and around the West Midlands. I admit, I'm depressed about being back. I miss waking up early in the morning to cling to his arm before he went off to work. I miss pouncing him as he came back in the door. I miss the simple in and outs of life with him right there, within reach.
Now, back to an ocean apart, it feels like I've left my real life behind in England.
But in the meantime, I have three months worth of dazzling sights and wonderful moments to hold me o