So, to update everyone about what's going on...

I'm in North Carolina for a week, maybe more. This sudden change of area happened due to an extremely sudden discovery on the part of my mother's health. In the middle of last week, my mom was diagnosed with an advanced form of ovarian cancer, which oddly enough is located on her lung instead of her ovaries and screwed up the doctors to no end for two weeks prior to this discovery. She had chemo on Thursday and was out by Thursday night. So, despite money issues, my continuous search for a job, and my determination to live a life of my own, I pleaded with David until he agreed that a visit would be better than nothing. Now that I'm here, watching Mom and seeing her troubles, I want to stay longer. I still have to discuss that with him, though, since currently he's paying for the trip as it is and he can't get a refund from my ticket, I don't believe.

My sister is finally starting to talk to me again. It's been over a year since she actually said anything to me, but the day I flew in, she talked to me on the phone and sounded almost happy to hear from me. I'm also invited to my niece's birthday party this up-coming Saturday, which is another new development. Maybe things are finally looking up and we'll be a family again, though I still admit I never want to have to face my brother-in-law again.

It feels so good to be back in NC. I admit, the humidity is a bother and causes my sinuses to go mad, but it feels like it's been forever since I've been home. It's really just like everyone says. Once you leave home, you spend the rest of your life wishing you could go back. I miss my old friends as well. I've been trying to contact a few of them, but no one has responded. I guess after a year or two of not hearing from me, I've become a ghost of a memory to most of them, or they just don't want to remember. After all, no one tends to believe people can change these days. I had my reasons for keeping away from them. Back then, the memories were too painful to face.

Well, that's all for now. I'll update again soon.

Jen